Just Breathe

It's weird....I can feel wonderful one second and then the next, I feel completely awful. I flood of terrible thoughts happen. All I want to do is drive home right now...All I want to do is hang out with my friends, but I honestly don't think that any of them are going to be home when I'm there....I feel good because Andrew is coming home. I miss him a lot. I'm glad that he's not gonna be  too far away anymore.  It gets super, super quiet at home without him.

I called my therapist today and she called me while I was asleep...And she said that she would call back later and I haven't heard from her...So that sort of makes me feel anxious.....I mean, knowing what I got on my test for Psych 110 makes me nervous too, because it's my major and I should be getting really great grades for it. I fear failure, extremely...It's a really bad thing, because it's gonna happen in my life regardless...I dunno. 

I also need to start working out...It's not okay  to be out of breathe when walking up three flights of stairs...I have a 21 year old heart. LAME.

Anyway, I should probably get work done....I might even take a nap ha ha. Wow, I'm officially pathetic.

love love love,

Beautiful Absurdities