Where are you going?

" Hold my hand inside your hands, I need someone who understands, I need someone, someone who hears, for you I've waited all these years."

So...One of my friends is going through a break up....Which sucks, I wish I could make it better.  Then it reminds me that I'm single with her again and I begin to feel a little less alone.  It's weird, people like me...But, that's not what's weird....What's weird is that I'm not happy. I'm not.  I wish that wasn't so. I haven't been genuinely happy since my first relationship....That's so pathetic...I wanna change that.  So person that I'm  meant to be with, come on over my way...I'll be the free spirited one sitting in the corner, looking confused. 

I think I'm a pretty good catch...Why am I never excited anymore? 

Wow, enough with the whining already.

Oy with the poodles already.

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In other news I think I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to go back to school...I mean, it'll be good, but, still not looking forward to leaving home. I feel comfortable here...I feel like I can be myself here and not have to apologize at all..It's a nice feeling...I gotta admit.

ANYWAYYYYYYYYY....Enough of my soap box..

It's definitely break up season....Out with the old, in with the new I guess...

*sigh*

Hoping you and yours are warm,

Beautiful Absurdities 

I don't want to be stuck in your gravity...

Sometimes I feel like a nut(

( that means, sometimes I feel like a nut)

So, here I am...writing my 23rd bloggy thingy...I wasn't gonna blog, just write for myself, but since Tyler and older people think I'm so interesting...Here it goes. 

I feel like retiring my heart for a while...I mean, nothing I set out to love works...People leave, people change, people disappear, people disappoint, people aren't in my stage of life....Sometimes I wonder when my time will be...Then realize that's the reason it's not happening...because I think about it too damned much. What the fuck is wrong with me. I'm lonely....but I don't need a relationship to complete me, don't get me wrong...I just miss being held...being loved...being touched...sharing things with...You know, that stuff.  I figure I should put my energy into something productive...my career....

I don't wanna start school again...ugh.. :/  

I can't write....or I haven't written...too depressed to write...silly, I know, but there ya go..

and with that...I go write for myself.

apres moi,

BA