So I've decided that I'm not going to title this blog until I'm done with it. I'm sitting in Bard gym, waiting for people to come submit their cards to me.
It's actually a pretty sweet job, but sometimes it gets really boring and nobody
shows up. Then I get to sit with my thoughts and while “ thinking”, I realized that I hadn’t blogged in what felt like ages. A lot has been going on in my life, but when it comes to blogging, I’m afraid to really open up because I know that everyone can see this, and it’s just an uncomfortable feeling...However, I can talk about what’s happening with JUST me or really my feelings about a few things, so I will do so.
This coming weekend I’ll be going to Maine with Peter to celebrate six months. When I think of our six months it almost feels like we’ve been together for a lot more than we actually have. We’ve been through a lot together and have had to work as a team to get through of the little issues that most any relationship faces. I am proud that I have a boyfriend that cares so much for me and for us. I don’t think that I could have waded through all the BS that we have without him. He is a great human being, he’s sweet to everyone, he respects everyone, with those few exceptions. He makes me want to be a better person, which, in my opinion, if you don’t really have that with the person, or have someone who challenges you to do your absolute best, you should probably search elsewhere.
What I’ve truly realized is this, you can’t rely on your significant other for everything. I admit that I have and occasionally do, do that, but I’m learning that you can truly only rely on yourself to do the things you want in life, and that is what I intend on doing. A relationship is a partnership, it’s trusting, it’s unconditional love and forgiveness, it’s working out the issues when they have to be dealt with, it’s comforting that special person and always being the honest opinion. But of course love is also very individualized, which I have also come to learn with Peter :). Our love is unlike any other I have ever known...Even after six months I still get the butterflies....And you know what? I absolutely love it.
Other things that have gone on in my life: My “ sister” Heidi has gone off to California....It feels like many people that I have and do care about move out there! What the heck is in the air there??? I have to admit San Francisco is an amazing place, but I just miss her so much. She’s one of the sweetest people I have ever known and one of the most selfless. I’m glad she’s finally doing something for herself rather than having other people in mind by doing so( although I think she’s trying to convince her siblings to move there as well). I just wish her the best and can’t wait until she comes and visits the place she, not too long ago, called “ home”.
Another big thing is that my best friend in the whole world moved her world to Virginia! In a bigger place and with another one of my good friends, Meghan! I’m so excited for them and to visit. I get two for the price of one! How exciting is that!? I miss Jenny so much, we haven’t had many opportunities to hang out recently, but that shall change come October...I seriously need to schedule that flight....Perhaps when I get my next check... I LOVE YOU JENN AND MEGHAN!!!!
Operation get internship is underway and I can’t wait for that either, I’ll be finally working in my field, I’m soooooo excited for it and really look forward to getting my feet wet.
Anyway, that’s really it for now.....I promise I won’t be away for so long next time!!
Love,
Beautiful Absurdities
