Thanks..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

I have not been this full in  QUITE some time....oh man.

That's all,

Beautiful Absurdities.

"Love makes us act like we are fools."

Love does make us act like we are fools.. Love kills me and kisses me all at the same time...Until I don't know what to do with myself, but give into it.  I hate that I have such a big heart sometimes because that means I have more of a chance of getting hurt...And I've been hurt a couple of times. I don't want to be hurt again, but I don't want to hold back any longer either....

I've told several people that the next man in my life needs to sweep me off my feet. This is true...I don't mean literally, although, that'd be splendid if said guy did this. I mean, he has to speak to my heart....He has to understand that I'm friendly, but I am loyal...He has to accept my quirks...He must be patient...He mustn't ask me a million questions about my whereabouts, but that isn't to say that I don't want him to take interest. I don't know...I know people are thinking " Don't have such high standards", but, why the hell shouldn't I? Why shouldn't I want the best? I think I'm a pretty good catch...It's just, sometimes you need to be with people who teach you how to make mistakes and how to make it better. 

I won't apologize for my high standards. One of my friends( I think you read this, so this is totally a shout out), told me I need a " Rock star" boyfriend...One who is totally good looking but you know, can keep up with me and be sweet and things. I appreciated that a lot...I think that says a lot about me. Sometimes I think that'll never happen...But stranger things  HAVE happened.

I know  YOU'RE  reading this...that last paragraph was not to offend....I love you a lot. I'm just saying...You and I are  NOT alike  ha ha, but, we do have a lot of the same thoughts. I appreciate you a lot and you are the best guy friend...However,  you're in your own category. You know me through and through...It's a beautiful thing. If life worked the way we wanted....*sigh*...I'm contented with what we have though...I dunno, it just feels right. Heh, the last time I heard that was from Edward Gibbons-brown...That's a weird one...sheesh...MOVING ON...since he clearly has.

Someone else told me they loved me last night. It's overwhelming to me, I never knew I had this great of an impact on people's lives. I'm just me. That's it, that's really all there is. I am just me. I don't feel that significant...Then all of a sudden, someone comes out with that and I feel...Well...It's not a normal reaction...My heart races and I feel bad because sometimes I really can't say it back, and the look on their faces is awful. Last night it was online though, because it was like 230am, sooo...yeah, couldn't really be face to face or anything, and we definitely raged about that.  If it's so easy for people to love me, why is it so damned hard for me to love others...and I mean romantically....

What I wouldn't do for some butterflies...*sigh*

On a side note...This font color is the color of my nails...

On ANOTHER side note, I really can't wait to be home and see all my friends...tears of joy just might happen...I wouldn't be surprised...I've been really emotional lately..Could be do to some girl things, buuuut, I've been emotional for like two weeks now.

ANYWAY...enough of my soapbox...

Please comment me!!! I enjoy reading them and  they are alllllways encouraged.

Tuesdays in paradise,

Beautiful Absurdities.

The WORLD has GONE inSANE

I hate people.

People who don't care about others feelings.

People who are so selfish.

Who don't care if you ever mattered to them.

Who don't mind if you know what's going on with them,

they just don't care....

I hate those people.

You know me....I don't hate...I just don't...But, I have no tolerance for these types of people.  

Ed and Kat are together....My worst fear came true..It's just really shitty to know that...To know that for my entire relations with him, he was thinking of her...broke my heart...and now they're together. I don't even want him in my life romantically anymore, it just really, really stings now....I don't know how to feel about it. I'm also upset for Bailey....I sincerely dislike Kathryn. 

Anyway...other than that it was a really good weekend...even if  the play wasn't that wonderful...

Thank  YOU for reading my blog...I swear if I didn't have my friends I'd probably be in a psych ward or something...

I can't type anymore....

more to come, 

B.Absurdities 

I'm still alive

I know that I haven't written in a really long time...But I promise you that once life decided to quiet down a bit, I'll catch you up on the crazy!

Love you all,

B.A.

A Rainbow of Thoughts.

Pink is my favorite color...No, not really blue is, but yeah!  Aerosmith FTW.

So, I'm still quite annoyed with how people are reacting to this election. It's so fucked up, seriously. Like, get the fuck over yourselves.  People are saying that he's a marxist and that he's gonna start communism here. That's bullshit. I can't stand ignorance, seriiiiously. 

This is a pretty color too. Damn, I was just trying to think of another clever lyric, but, alas, I do not have one. lo siento.

 I think this is gonna be a blog that is so random that when you read it, you'll be thinking, um...What the hell were you on Beautiful Absurdities?  Well kids, you answer is life! I feel like it's getting better and I'm excited for what's coming!  It's taken me a while, but I'm back....I believe. 

I, JACK, THE PUMPKIN KING, HAVE GROWN SO TIRED OF THE SAME OL' THING!

Me too Jack, Me too! I honestly want to get out there and see what there is to see and do what there is to do.  So, hopefully things start comin' around the mountain as one would say. 

Everything in life is only for now!

Yes, yes it is...We must be appreciative of what we have...Also...Nothing is promised to us, and lots of people have issues with that.  Well, from now on, I'm gonna try to keep this in my head.  

THE REVOLUTION STARTS NOW!

THE END,

Beautiful Absurdities

Where?

This is a pretty color, so I chose that.

I miss sleeping with someone. I mean literally sleeping next to someone. It's weird because I got so used to Heidi having a side, and then before that Ed and  it's weird not having anyone there. I just feel such comfort when it happens. Anyway, yea, I miss that.

Today was such a long day...Seriously...I woke up at 740 and then did work, then went to class, then hung around...but even THAT gets exhausting, then went to another class, then mediated a classmate, and then got food...I'm so exhausted, but will probably not sleep for a long while.

Can I just say I'm so fucking sick of homework already....It's just like, always on my back, I never have one day where there isn't something I SHOULD be doing. I get it...I mean, there is always gonna be homework, but I'm just exhausted by it. 

I miss you! Seriously, I never really have in depth conversations with  YOU and it's weird. We're always running and I think it's about time we made...erm...time for each other. It's weird, like, I know that I have a lot of things to say to you, but then when we talk, I have no clue what to talk about and I just wind up talking about anything the pops into my mind.

BDIZZlE! Ugh, miss you like you wouldn't believe. I hate that we won't see each other for another few weeks....School doesn't feel right without you around. We have GOT to get together...good grief. 

YAY TO Obama winning, boo to those who are being sore about it and are talking all this shit about him..You don't know what he's going to be like, so stop being douche bags.

THANK YOU!!

Anyhow, I have no idea what I'm doing tonight...I might just take in a movie or something, who really knows.

Hope you're all having good nights!

xoxoxo,

Beautiful Absurdities.

MY President

Obama  is  MY president. I have never been more proud of this country. There  IS hope. 2009 here we come!!!!!!! :)

Also, my " uncle" won too. Robert McKeon! 

What a night.

God Bless The United States,

Beautiful Absurdities

Change history.

This blog is simple....Vote. If you don't vote, don't complain...You have nobody to blame but yourself if the outcome isn't what you wanted. You must vote...This is the election our kids will be asking if we voted in.  Do you want to be the one who tells them you did, or the one who says you didn't vote because it was too late? I know I wouldn't.  DO IT!

Thank you.

Vote.

Or.

Die.

<3,

B.A.

A Little Change

A change before me

A change beyond me too.

They say that life will change you

Into something new.

Holding on is easy

Not letting go, it's true.

Your path will help to learn the cue,

but change is hard to do.

And  when the sun

Decides the day is done

And the night is anew.

Twenty thousand and one

heartbeats, to keep dreams from coming

undone.

A college dorm

A baby's cry

A tear upon the floor.

A golden locket from the past

At last, now something more.

The change in them

Is the change in you-

Now the opening of a door.

They pour

The change

In

You.

I suddenly was extremely inspired and this is what came out for me.  I  have felt such change in my life that it gets so overwhelming, and I wanted people to be able to relate to it as well.  Everyone has to deal with change, whether it's  moving away from your parents house,  getting married, having a baby, or maybe even a change in your mind set...Whatever it is....It's never an easy thing to do.  

I'm reading this book called  The Secret,  and it's all about the laws of attraction, how you can get to where you want to be, just by  your positive thoughts. It tells how you send out your thoughts to the universe and the universe  gives you more situations to make those  thoughts become  things.. I think everyone can be improve their lives just by practicing this. 

Anyhow...Time to start my  day.

Thank you for reading,

Beautiful Absurdities