I've told several people that the next man in my life needs to sweep me off my feet. This is true...I don't mean literally, although, that'd be splendid if said guy did this. I mean, he has to speak to my heart....He has to understand that I'm friendly, but I am loyal...He has to accept my quirks...He must be patient...He mustn't ask me a million questions about my whereabouts, but that isn't to say that I don't want him to take interest. I don't know...I know people are thinking " Don't have such high standards", but, why the hell shouldn't I? Why shouldn't I want the best? I think I'm a pretty good catch...It's just, sometimes you need to be with people who teach you how to make mistakes and how to make it better.
I won't apologize for my high standards. One of my friends( I think you read this, so this is totally a shout out), told me I need a " Rock star" boyfriend...One who is totally good looking but you know, can keep up with me and be sweet and things. I appreciated that a lot...I think that says a lot about me. Sometimes I think that'll never happen...But stranger things HAVE happened.
I know YOU'RE reading this...that last paragraph was not to offend....I love you a lot. I'm just saying...You and I are NOT alike ha ha, but, we do have a lot of the same thoughts. I appreciate you a lot and you are the best guy friend...However, you're in your own category. You know me through and through...It's a beautiful thing. If life worked the way we wanted....*sigh*...I'm contented with what we have though...I dunno, it just feels right. Heh, the last time I heard that was from Edward Gibbons-brown...That's a weird one...sheesh...MOVING ON...since he clearly has.
Someone else told me they loved me last night. It's overwhelming to me, I never knew I had this great of an impact on people's lives. I'm just me. That's it, that's really all there is. I am just me. I don't feel that significant...Then all of a sudden, someone comes out with that and I feel...Well...It's not a normal reaction...My heart races and I feel bad because sometimes I really can't say it back, and the look on their faces is awful. Last night it was online though, because it was like 230am, sooo...yeah, couldn't really be face to face or anything, and we definitely raged about that. If it's so easy for people to love me, why is it so damned hard for me to love others...and I mean romantically....
What I wouldn't do for some butterflies...*sigh*
On a side note...This font color is the color of my nails...
On ANOTHER side note, I really can't wait to be home and see all my friends...tears of joy just might happen...I wouldn't be surprised...I've been really emotional lately..Could be do to some girl things, buuuut, I've been emotional for like two weeks now.
ANYWAY...enough of my soapbox...
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Tuesdays in paradise,
Beautiful Absurdities.
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